First and foremost, I just want to say sorry for not posting for about a month now. It’s been awhile since I last updated my blog. I usually visit a museum/art gallery at least once a week but for this last few weeks, I’ve failed. Here I am today to tell you my reasons for that hiatus break.
First, I had attended a lot of film festivals lately (and I still do) and it affected my schedules. I do love films. And this film festivals do make me happy. Also, the cinemas are near where I live, so it doesn’t became a problem.
Before I move forward for the second & last reason I have, I’ll let you know the purpose of this blog as a whole. For the last few months, I am mentally unstable. Yes, I am depressed and have anxiety disorder. This illness made me unproductive. So, as an escape, I decided to treat myself some ‘happiness’. I decided to wander around the city and lose & find myself at the same time. I decided to go to different museums & art galleries so I won’t suffer consistently on my depression. I did. I went to lots of museums & art galleries around Pasig, Pasay, Manila & more. I am actually not comfortable commuting alone because I’m not familiar with the roads/streets/places in general—I don’t go out a lot; but I did made it. I promise myself to do that consistently but things happened.
Today, my depression consumes me a lot. I become more unproductive and such. I, personally, don’t wanna go outside, don’t wanna mingle to a lot of people no matter if they are my friends or acquaintances. I always find myself lying on the sofa or my bed at home—staying up all night for no particular reason. I feel so lonely. I feel so worthless. So, I’m sorry if I did let you all down.
I promise, once I finally had the courage and the urge to do this again, I’ll do all my best. I can’t promise a new update by this week or next, but I’ll do my best to make it sooner. I just wanted to let you all know that I am grateful to all of you. ☺
I didn’t chose to have my depression, it is a thing—please do understand. Thank you!